I keep thinking of Southern California

I feel sort of homesick. Not so much for the hustle and bustle of San Diego. I guess for the family and friends i've left behind here.

Went to Cambria today to spend time with my grandmother and sister and cousins who just spent the week up there. They rented a beautiful house that overlooked the water. It was very peaceful. Went on a two-mile walk. Ate actual food (I've been pretty malnourished seeing as I can't cook for myself) and brought leftovers home.

I really fought back tears saying goodbye to my grandma. She is my rock. We've been through so much together. I spent every day with her during my treatment. It was so hard to keep from losing it when she hugged me goodbye.

I don't feel like I did when I left home two years ago. Back then I knew in my heart that the choice I had made was not the right one. Now, I feel like right now I'm in the right place at the right time. I guess its just never very easy to say goodbye to your loved ones.

I just keep telling myself to press on. Every day gets a little bit easier, and sometimes we backtrack but the next day we wake up and put on our shoes and walk forward into another day with another roller coaster of emotions.

Life isn't static...and that is the pain in the ass.

Arrr Mateys

I ate vegetables covered in Thai curry sauce for dinner. I think cooking for myself is going to be a long and arduous process. However, it was delicious.

I start 1/2 of my classes tomorrow...My two IRL classes at Cuesta. 2-8 rawr.

Went to Morro Bay today. Such a peaceful little town that sounds like delicious seafood. I saw a lot of seals and the giant rock. Also did some thrifting. Stopping shopping is also going to be a long and arduous process as well. The other half of the day was spent looking for a job. I have about ten applications I have to fill out, a few of which I have completely forgotten who they are for.

My roommate is making peanut butter cookies. I have a very cozy room where all of my furniture fits. and unbeknown to me, my clothes fit in my closet.

There is a very calming atmosphere about this place. People stop for pedestrians, nobody honks at you to move a second after the light turns green. There are places to park and half the time you don't even need to drive. People move at a slower, more relaxed pace.

I like it up here. So far, so good.

Leaving on a jet plane

Actually more like "Leaving in a Volvo"

I feel more ready this time. I am excited to decorate my room.
But I can't help but feel like once it sinks in i'm going to become homesick.
I miss my friends and family already.
I'm one of those people that just doesn't like the end of things.










Stay tuned for chapter 2!

Today

I'm kind of productive today at work. And I am fighting off the urge to drink a Coke.



If it werent for color coating my databases in fun vibrant colors, I don't think I would want to come to work.

A good old fashioned blog post.

I can't believe how fast time has passed. I'm moving next Saturday. I'm sorta starting to feel sentimental about leaving San Diego (but more on that later). Maybe I can make an epic photo montage like they do in the series finale of all those tv shows.

I am completely obsessed with Tim and Eric Awesome Show, Great Job.